I need to step up my blog game.
The last two and a half months, I have kept a low profile from damn near everything. Dealing with a death in the family, going through writer's block, being forced to take a semester off of school, and having mentally imblanced ex-girlfriends with crimson red hair, freckles, and a thirst for everything 180 Proof, stalk you every minute of almost every day...not to mention my growing frustration with this "rap game" that I participate in.
So, that has led me to feel as if though I need to change the pace a little bit. For the last several months, despite all the things that I have done, the people I've seen, something was missing. I didn't feel like myself. I felt that I started making music, for all the wrong reasons, stuff that I use to be somewhat against. That's moreso, 'cause rap was more than just music, I've had memories that link to the music that I had got into at the time, being young, going through college, meeting new people, experiencing new things, that before, I would be afraid to put myself in those situations. Writing and music helped me get through troubling times in my life, from failed relationships, to dealing with anger, to accepting death. I don't regret ever getting noticed or wish I can take it back at all, however for me, while some see it as a business, I see it as an art.
With these last couple months, I have been trying to sort out and do a little cleansing of the thought process. Every step I take from here on out, is gonna be for my own benefit, in bringing back most of the DIY ethics that made me what I am. Quite frankly, I would say...that it is about time, that I bring some of the Madhatter back into Mad Static, where it is not me going to the past, but bringing him along into the future.
So I will keep you posted, hopefully daily, with these random ass thoughts of mine. Let's just hope I don't relapse into another leave of absence because of some stupid shit.
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